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PlayStation 4: we’ve been waiting two decades for this

Thursday, 7 February 2013 13:43 GMT By Brenna Hillier

PlayStation 4 looks set to happen sooner rather than later. Brenna looks back at a brand that grew up alongside her.

PlayStation has literally saved my life. It has changed my life. It has, in many ways, been my life, and I’m not the least bit embarrassed to admit it. Bring on the PlayStation 4, Sony. You’ve had my pre-order for 16 years.

PSOne
At the end of 1996 I was over video games. I grew up a Sega kid in a country town and when much-mourned Australian magazine Megazone folded I started to lose interest in our Mega Drive. Hardly anyone I knew played video games, a Saturn was way too expensive for my sister and I to save up for, and with no monthly reminder of all the games I was not going to get for Christmas or my birthday – and the two that I would – gaming just fell off the radar. I’d recently discovered human beings were physically attractive and that if I wanted to do something about it I’d better start learning clothes and hair and make up and how to talk without making an idiot of myself. I had shit to do in the real world.

I can’t imagine how different my life would be if that had lasted. One year later we were living in the city, I was attending a much fancier school and my chances at romance had been completely axed by a total lack of progress in any of the learning areas mentioned above and a developing case of persistant, severe acne. I was a small frog in a big pond, awkward, unhappy, and lonely.

As at so many similar times in my life my dad came to my rescue. This was the dawn of the golden era of PlayStation TV commercials, when gaming was just starting to look “cool” again after a disastrous decade of utter nerdery. I summoned my courage, cut out an ad from a Toys-R-Us catalogue complete with dauntingly large price tag, and posted it off to my father – who, as the non-custodial parent, had been landed with the traditional role of gift vending machine.

Oh god. Oh god. Oh god. I can’t tell
anyone I play video games.

And then there was suddenly shit like this.
Surely our time had come.

In consultation with my mother, who purchased a game (Disney’s Action Game featuring Hercules – don’t laugh, it’s actually pretty solid and I love that bloody movie) to go with the new machine, the unspeakably dear package arrived under my tree on Christmas Day. My sister was by then too old to be particularly keen on children’s pursuits (don’t worry, she came back around almost immediately) but we sat down together anyway, watching the tech demo of tyrannosaurus rex and manta ray and marvelling at these feats of brilliance.

A console-less friend gave me a copy of Tomb Raider II he’d won in a competition, and I used all my savings and birthday money to pick up Final Fantasy VII barely a month later. My three games lasted me eighteen months and triggered two lasting passions – Tomb Raider and RPGs of all shapes and flavours.

The popular girls did not flock to my house to check out my amazing new machine. Some of the kinder ones indulged my rabbiting about it before sitting me down for makeovers. I was still not cool, not attractive, not interesting, and deeply unhappy. But the adventures of Cloud, Lara and Hercules helped me not to dwell on it, and a few months later a brooding young man from a group of “rejects” would tell me something amazing about materia.

Several of those rejects are among my best friends today. I suspect all the talented, intelligent, attractive and interesting people I’ve met in games were rejects. I’m so glad I was.

PS2
The day I flew home from my aborted Japanese school exchange sometime in mid-2002 was one of the worst days of my life.

I was so unhappy in Japan – sick and confused – that eventually my parents in Australia freaked out, my host families and school complained, and the exchange program sent me home. I was so glad to be coming back to a place where I had family and friends that I didn’t argue, but I didn’t stop crying for months.

We didn’t get this terrible US ad in Oz.
We had a far better European one.

I really, really wanted to come home. I didn’t know it then, but I was struggling with a black depression which would return to haunt me at intervals. It made me moody and self-obsessed, difficult and unfriendly, lonely and uncommunicative. It made me fail at the one thing, the one life goal, I’d ever set for myself.

Going to Japan had been my dream. I’d never been good at anything – I don’t play an instrument; I can’t draw; I’m terrible at sports; I’m not very good at academic work; I’m not stylish; I’m socially awkward. To win a scholarship to visit the country which produced the games, martial arts, movies and comics I was so interested in was a dream come true. I was the envy of my friends. During a year in which I should have been studying for my final exams and coming out of my shell socially, I instead saved most of my after-school job earnings and worked extra shifts to help fund my trip.

It all fell through. I thought, this is it. I’ll never achieve anything. I can’t even just quietly go to school in another country. I’m useless. I cried so hard and was so generally pathetic that my mother, in a panic, sent me to stay with my dad, hoping he could find out what was wrong.

He wouldn’t, of course, because he loved me and believed in me and could never, ever accept my negative opinion of myself. But in one of my bouts of trying to tell him anything at all, I choked out that I would like to spend the remainder of my savings on a PlayStation 2, then about 18 months old in PAL territories. My dad approved this request instantly.

Mind. Blown.

One of the first games I got was Grand Theft Auto III. Those who weren’t there will never understand what a revelation this game was. Huge explorable worlds like that had rarely been seen before, and the freedom to do what felt like anything was amazing. It ate my life. Any time I wasn’t working or sleeping, I was playing, and my dad left me to it; while I was gaming I wasn’t thinking about hurting myself.

The following year I moved back to the city to start uni. I got in touch with my old friends, and made new ones at my seriously geeky classes in software engineering. All of them had stories to share from Grand Theft Auto. I had achieved 100% completion in both GTA III and Vice City by then and knew more about them than anyone I had ever met. This made me slightly famous; people would ask me how to complete various missions and where to find collectibles, and ask me over to play through tricky parts for them. I was happy.

PS3
I fell in love and shortly thereafter moved to New Zealand. It rained almost non-stop for the six months we occupied our tiny Queen Street love nest, constantly in each other’s way, both stuck at work for long hours, paying off a joint debt, fighting (in my head) like Andy Capp and Flo.

The make-ups were as violent as the disagreements. We were about as broke as it is possible to be and maintain the image of middle-class respectability, but my partner vowed to buy me everything I ever wanted, forever. (We ran out to a department store instantly to pick up a Wii – it hadn’t even been released, narrowly avoiding an alternate future dominated by Marios.) I picked out a magnificent flatscreen TV for purchase on our return to Australia, to go with the shiny new PlayStation 3 we would buy not years later but on release day, at full price, so as never again to miss out on the wealth of new games a console launch brings.

Holy shit! I don’t know what they’re
talking about, but that box is pretty huge!

It didn’t happen. International moves aren’t cheap. My partner’s career went on pause for a year thanks to a surprise thesis defence. My proper grown-up government job drove me into a nervous collapse for months of miserable unemployment. The Day The Debts Are Paid Off kept being delayed. We stopped fighting and knuckled down to a strict budget; I stopped thinking of myself as a person who could buy things.

Sometime in late 2007, my partner rang me from Europe and told me to buy a PlayStation 3 for myself. The debts would be paid; the career was back on track, although it would separate us by the space of two continents for a full year.

With no mixed feelings I purchased the biggest of big black boxes. I still didn’t have a decent screen to plug it into (that would come on another birthday, a purchase partially financed by my unexpected success as a freelance games writer) but here it was: a promise fulfilled. I was all alone and carrying a much too heavy box, but I didn’t even care. I was loved. The box more than proved it.

PSP
I wanted a PSP at launch so badly I could almost bring one into existence by sheer will. I couldn’t afford an iPod, even as the ubiquity of iDevices loomed on the horizon, but if I got a PSP I’d have a portable music player and I could play games and watch movies on it. The graphics – “somewhere between PSOne and PS2″, previews enthused – astounded me and I longed to possess this smexy device.

I put it off, and put it off, and eventually quite forgot about it – I got an iPod as a gift, the PlayStation 3 came along, and there weren’t that many games I was interested in, anyway. It wasn’t until 2008 when I came down with a serious illness and ended up largely bedbound that the idea came back to me.

Finally, a new Final Fantasy with the series’
best character in it: materia.

My partner flew back from Europe to look after me for a month, during which time sitting up in front of the TV was strictly rationed. I was mostly confined to the bedroom, but occasionally I’d be let outside to remind myself other humans existed and absorb some vitamin D. On one such expedition I came across a limited edition silver PSP branded with the Final Fantasy: Crisis Core logo. I was, at the time, a tragic sucker for everything Final Fantasy, and the thought of leaving this sure-to-sell-out device in the store nearly killed me then and there. But knowing that The Day The Debts Are Paid Off was still far away, I let it go.

Half an hour later, sitting over lunch, my partner announced we would get the bloody thing, fuck it, the flights back and forth cost ten times as much and nobody batted an eyelid.

Any gamer who has been ill for a significant amount of time knows just how good portable consoles can be. You can make yourself comfortable in a bed without straining to see a screen, you can face any direction, you can put the device to sleep when you yourself suddenly fall asleep. I smashed Crisis Core, and then Warriors Orochi, a game which seemed to hold as much content as could possibly fit on any device, and then it was December and thanks to the months I’d spent in bed literally twiddling my thumbs I was well enough to move to Europe and possibly get on with my life.

Oh heck yes, it’s got twin sticks and also
a bunch of shit I don’t expect anyone to
use in 18 months time, this is perfect.

Vita
I bought a Vita on launch day. In the intervening years, The Day The Debts Are Paid Off came and went, and I, somehow, ended up pulling in wages for writing about games. There’s simply no question of not buying a console should I want one; it’s still a financial strain, because these things aren’t exactly cheap, but it’s now a tax deduction and I honestly need them. It was the first console – the first device – I’d ever purchased at release and slapping my credit card on the table felt like a validation of the years I spent wondering what the heck was wrong with me because the only things I wanted to do and had any aptitude for were playing video games and writing things down about them.

I wish there were more games for the Vita, but I take it with me whenever I travel and I take pride and pleasure in it. Even if I stopped using it, I’d keep it with me – a reminder that all the years of being told to stop wasting my life with video games were worth it.

And into the future
Writing this article I realised how PlayStation console purchases have punctuated my life, tied up with events and transitions; it’s easier to remember things as “just after I got the PS2″ then to put a year to them.

Since I bought the Vita, I’ve broken up with my partner of seven years, the one featured in two of these stories, and have accumulated a debt of my own. I have no idea when The Day The Debts Are Paid Off will come again, or if it ever will. But if I have to put that day off a few more months because Sony wants to bring out a new console before the end of the year to shore up its ailing business, I’ll do it, with a ready smile.

I grew up with PlayStation. PlayStation has literally saved my life. It has changed my life. It has, in many ways, been my life, and I’m not the least bit embarrassed to admit it. Bring on the PlayStation 4, Sony. You’ve had my pre-order for 16 years.

Sony has called a PlayStation meeting for February 20, where it is expected to reveal the next PlayStation console ahead of release either this year or next. The original PlayStation first debuted in 1994.

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45 Comments

  1. Karooo

    Good article, but shouldn’t the headline be “I’ve been waiting two decades…” :P

    #1 2 years ago
  2. Deacon

    Great read Brenna :)

    #2 2 years ago
  3. tmac2011

    lol jet motto2 commercial was awesoem why cant they do that today….. brings back memories. HEY LADY HIT THE GAS YOURE KILLING ME!

    #3 2 years ago
  4. daytripper

    Really well written but…nah leave it

    #4 2 years ago
  5. theevilaires

    @ 1. I know right and I thought I was the SONY fan around here ;)

    But I do share her enthusiasm about the next PlayStation. Seems like SONY will finally correct their mistakes made with the 3 and improve the 4 in every aspect. The only thing from stopping the 4 from becoming the ultimate PlayStation is backward compatibility. The 60gb and 20gb PS3′s still hold that crown….and I have both :P

    #5 2 years ago
  6. RandomTiger

    Wow, that was a little intense.

    #6 2 years ago
  7. Strange Sultan

    I’m not excited for the new generation of consoles yet. And that’s because I don’t trust the developers to bring anything new except maybe for improved graphics. I think the PS3 and X360 still has plenty of juice in them. You can’t blame the hardware for the shitty games we’ve been getting lately.

    It’s a matter of creativity. Gearbox did in two Borderlands games what Call of Duty ‘refused” to do in six. Hardware didn’t matter !

    #7 2 years ago
  8. orakaa

    Thank you for sharing this with us Brenna. Great article. The kind that make me come back to VG247 every time (just like your Tomb Raider article).

    #8 2 years ago
  9. DarkElfa

    Normally I wouldn’t ask something so private but since I just read your life story, I figured why not. Are you by any chance gay? I only ask because you played the pro-noun game. You never said he or she, husband or wife, only “my partner”.

    Mind you it’s fine with me either way, just curious.

    #9 2 years ago
  10. dankpanties

    This was a very well written piece and heartwrenching to boot.

    I have been playing video games since 1982, and I figure I’ll be playing them as long as I’m physically able… so I empathize with them as being a continuous part of someone’s life, as well as mnemonic reference.

    That said, I also know how easy it is for video games to become a crutch, an all encompassing reality denial blanket. And that’s never, ever, a good thing. It seems to me reading this piece that you’ve taken to wearing this blanket a few times. And your reasons are your own, not knocking you for a survival mechanism.

    However, let me give you one piece of advice. Get a dog. A big goofy pain in your ass dog. One that will be ridiculously happy to see you every day, won’t let you sit on the couch all the time (let’s play! let’s walk!), and best of all, will always comfort and adore you no matter what else is going on in your life. I’ve had a dog now for two years, and he makes me happier than any video game ever does.

    Just an idea. If you already have a dog, sorry… but I think not, it’s hard to have a black depression when you have a silly dog slobbering on your toes.

    #10 2 years ago
  11. sonny

    Life is beautiful.

    #11 2 years ago
  12. Psychotext

    I think I’ve just realised that gaming isn’t nearly as big a part of my life as it is to a lot of people here. I always considered myself a fairly avid gamer but yeah… I don’t know, I just don’t think I’m in the same league as this, even at the height of my gaming!

    Certainly not now, because if I’m honest there are so many things these days I’d rather be doing than gaming. It’s odd really, I figured I’d never “grow out of it”, and I guess I didn’t (in such that you really can’t), but I think my preferences have changed a lot in the last few years. Even before it’s certainly never been something that I’d use to bookend parts of my life, at least not as an adult. Though I must admit that I’m not really one for looking back.

    #12 2 years ago
  13. manamana

    Yes, great read Brenna. And so personal. I guess most of us have this special combination of “buying a new console/handheld” and where we were at that point in time. You brought up so much memories. Thanks Brenna and keep on fighting, do it for the games! ;-)

    #13 2 years ago
  14. theevilaires

    @ Psychotext you just hit that point in life where its just not as important anymore. I know you’re pretty hardcore because you have a higher than average gamer score on LIVE, but maybe you’re just losing interest year after year. I’m sure many of us will feel like you do some point in time.

    #14 2 years ago
  15. absolutezero

    “I know you’re pretty hardcore because you have a higher than average gamer score on LIVE”

    U wot m8?

    #15 2 years ago
  16. Robo_1

    A great read Brenna. Let’s hope the wait is worth it.. (hint, it will be :D)

    #16 2 years ago
  17. Telepathic.Geometry

    @Psycho: I think that you’re experiencing the effects of games having been predictable and samey for far too long. Remember the days when Pikmin or Okami or Rez or SuperMarioWorld might come out? While the polish and production values of games have gone way way up, I think that the AAA games have lost that capacity to surprise us (for the most part, Excite Truck, Portal, Geometry Wars Galaxies, Dead Space 1, Demon’s Souls being exceptions for me).

    I think if you spend too much time playing, you start to clearly see the confines of your skinner box, and it ain’t pretty. The good news is though, if you just cool it way way down for a while, and focus on gettin’ your life in order and developing some other hobbies, you’ll slowly regain a fondness for games. Worked for me. Stay away from toxic forums though…

    #17 2 years ago
  18. theevilaires

    Yea what T.G. said.

    #18 2 years ago
  19. Telepathic.Geometry

    Oh, and just got ’round to reading your piece Brenna. Thanks for sharing all of that personal shit with us. I would like to say that – based on what you wrote in the PSOne section – Japan is the fucking worst place you could have gone. My experience here in Japan is that even with the best possible case scenario, Japan is an extremely hard place to adapt to for western chicks… :/

    #19 2 years ago
  20. orakaa

    Japan is a wonderful place. Been there on many occasions and it’s always such a pleasure… but living and working there is a TOTALLY different thing.

    Even if I had the opportunity, I don’t know if I’d go over there (if I was rich, I’d only live there 6 months a year)

    #20 2 years ago
  21. MadFlavour

    Dear diary…

    #21 2 years ago
  22. DSB

    Definitely agree with TG.

    It seems a company like EA’s main product these days is new business models and nickle and dime schemes. Fuck the games, no one will notice.

    Then you have Activision desperately milking a few blockbusters while signing up for one dull, licensed mediocrity after the other.

    I think it’s a bit of a stretch to say that that’s how it’s always been. It’s definitely more consistent now.

    #22 2 years ago
  23. fearmonkey

    An amazing article Brenna and I’m impressed with your bravery, that you shared all that emotion and your soul with us. :) I hope every appreciates how wonderful and rare that is to read on a gaming site.

    As someone who went though a black depression in my mid to late teens I understand what you went though. I think it’s wonderful that Playstation has meant so much to you and has been such a positive thing in your life.

    It’s amazing to me that I am in my early 40′s and still as excited about the next gen and games as I always was :)

    Bravo and well done on the article!

    #23 2 years ago
  24. Lounds

    Great article Brenna, I wish you many years of happiness within gaming. I was always poor and I remember saving my pocket money for 2 years so I could buy a PlayStation back in 2000 when I was 10, I paid £100 for a second hand one with a ton of games, to which my favourite games of that console were FFIX, crash bash and THPS2.

    I ask my mum back 2 years after the PS2 came out one xmas that if she could I’d really like one, she managed to get the money for me. She got me The Getaway, it was the same xmas GTA:VC came out and even though all my friends raved on about was that I played the Getaway so many times the story the game play so in depth it was like being in a guy richie movie and not only that I also had a dvd player! I played hours of different games, Burnout 3 probably being my favorite.

    When I went to college at 16 I started going to a games club and got addicted to playing UT, CounterStrike:Source and Battlefield 1942. It was at this point in 2006/7 I decided to buy a PC and become a PC gamer. Buying a cheap ass E-Machine with my part-time job at a super market and eventually bought a graphics card that could play games decently with my first game being BF:2142 (awesome game, hoping for Bf2142) and on my 17th birthday bought Half-life 2 (which came with CS:S) where I was introduced to steam and I discovered a world that was so more in the future than what the PS3 and 360 could offer at the time. It had a store where I could buy games and download them to any of my machines no matter what region I was in, no more disks, I store them on my HDD and play them instantly. This was the reason I didn’t buy the PS3 60gb for £425.

    I bought a PS3 xmas 2010 when I saw one in a Window of a second hand shop, and it was the original 60gb, I have since then upgraded to 500gb. I love all of the first party titles. Anything multi-plat I buy off Steam. I will always love Sony’s products, I even bought a PSP on release day Sep 4th 2005 in UK, I played that for hours, I finally had burnout in my hands and Wipeout!

    Anyways good read and thanks for reminding my appreciation for games.

    #24 2 years ago
  25. ps4some

    Great article Brenna – nuff respect !!!

    #25 2 years ago
  26. ninjanutta

    Heavy read brenna,brave aswell.I have grown up through all gaming cycles from atari 2600 onwards and still struggle but always manage to have evry console each time they come out.
    gaming is a way of life for some of us and thats why we cant do without the new tech every time.lol

    #26 2 years ago
  27. SlayerGT

    The more I know about a person personally, the more I value they’re opinion. Great read Brenna. You’re story really resonated with me.

    #27 2 years ago
  28. theevilaires

    Is she a lesbian because she kept saying partner instead of boyfriend?

    #28 2 years ago
  29. Psychotext

    @tea: It wouldn’t surprise me. My interest in / time spent gaming has dropped pretty quickly since my father died. It’s entirely possible that I’ve started to feel like time is somewhat more limited than I used to believe. (As kids we’re all basically invincible and plan on living forever)

    @TG: There’s certainly aspects to that too, and it fits with the fact that a lot of my high points this generation have come via co-op experiences (where it’s more about who you’re playing with than what you’re playing). Still there have been high points in the single player arena too. Valkyria Chronicles, Braid, N+, Demon’s Souls, Trials HD, Portal, Bioshock… but it’s probably telling that most of those were games from the early to mid part of the gen.

    I just wish I could get back that joy I used to feel. I can’t remember the last time I was genuinely “hyped” for an upcoming game. I mean that sincerely too… I’m actually trying to think of one but I can’t.

    #29 2 years ago
  30. DarkElfa

    @28, That was my point. It’s totally cool if she is, love is love, but I just thought it was interesting.

    #30 2 years ago
  31. Psychotext

    I used to call my missus my partner… was just because we weren’t married at the time, girlfriend didn’t quite cover it and fiancée sounded pretentious.

    #31 2 years ago
  32. speedxl01

    I like your article a lot, videogames had played and play an important role in my life.

    #32 2 years ago
  33. Digital Bamboo

    @theevilaires I think if she thought that was relevant she would have said so.

    Some people just say partner. I met one of my male professors one evening for drinks (he had invited the class) and, seeing a chair empty at the table, asked if it was free. He said, “No, my partner is sitting there.” Which I (wrongly) took to mean he was gay. Luckily, I didn’t say anything about it at the time, as that would have been rather awkward.
    Moral of the story: sometimes it’s best not to ask.

    Anyway, brave piece Brenna. A rarity in games writing.

    #33 2 years ago
  34. Telepathic.Geometry

    @TEA: I don’t think you should ask some-one that sort of question. Sure, it’s okay if she isn’t. But it’s okay if I have a huge salary, or earn buttons, but that doesn’t mean you should ask me. That’s private shit.

    @Psycho: Sorry to hear about your dad there fella. My dad passed there a couple of years back, and it really does make you think about how you’re spending your time. For me, the games I like are games that give my brain a work-out, have beautiful artwork, and tell amusing stories.

    But I think that I have it all nicely balanced. I play games a lot, but my real-life always comes first. I’m lucky enough to have a Japanese GF, which means that she doesn’t think twice about my gaming collection, my comic collection or my movie collection. She likes to watch me play sometimes too, and actively takes part, pointing out where the loot is, and screaming when a necro crawls out of a vent. But as soon as she suggests going for a walk to the lake, or cooking up something fancy, the game is over.

    HOWEVER! I do feel the same way about new games. The feeling I had when looking at the box-art for SuperMarioWorld I’ve never had since. I think that those games are still out there, but we’re all getting older and more jaded, and think we just have to settle for a bit of mild surprise and happiness when a new game is coming out. That deep sense of wonder is probably lost to us now…

    #34 2 years ago
  35. GwynbleiddiuM

    That’s why XBOTS never understand the value of PlayStation, because many of us went through shit and came back on top with a few trustworthy PlayStations at our side. That’s why even though I categories myself as a PC gamer, will always love the PlayStation brand. I have great stories with my Brothers and my PlayStations. A very good read Brenna, thanks for sharing. :D

    #35 2 years ago
  36. Telepathic.Geometry

    Personally, this article is very similar to my relationship with Nintendo. Which is why it’s such a heart-breaker for me to not be into them any more. It’s like falling out of love with someone, it’s that same kind of melancholy… Even though it’s just a company.

    #36 2 years ago
  37. polygem

    TG +1:
    i can sign everything you said. same with my girlfriend too. she’s not into gaming but very tolerant and open minded. she’s like a kid sometimes. she’s positive. i really love that about her.
    that said, i am having a wiiu and a 3 ds now. especially the 3ds is great. awesome games that are fresh but feel like the old games. i lost touch with ninty before too. ignored the wii for long and then finally bought (and enjoyed) one late.
    thing is, i love gaming, but i also like a lot of different things. some are expensive too, i am totally into tattooing, just to name the biggest cash burner, though that’ll be kinda over soon since there’s not much space on my body left ;). i feel like i really really want to play less these days. it’s strange but true. i have all current gen main systems, now even the wiiu. i am -again- at a point in life where i cannot help but wanting to just sell all of them, but one…to just keep one. it’s a love/hate kind of thing really. i love to play great games once in a while but it’s almost stress to me to have so much choice now, to keep up to date, to have this huge backlog. it also burns serious cash. i am a social worker so i’m certainly not the rich type (but i can get tattooed and still have a fun job where i can be myself+live from. my number one priority).
    many call me a ninty fanboy here, which is far from true. i am a gamesfan. the funny thing is, i am even more and more thinking about becoming a ps only gamer next gen…to own one system with not all-but a good amount of quality/variety games on it. (i’d probably keep my 3ds too though;)
    i really feel like that’s enough. it should be enough. there’s other things in life than playing videogames…but i do not want to miss the great moments sometimes where you walk into a shop, grab the new game you waited for, get home and play it for 10 hours straight. but do i really need to own 4 or even 5 systems for that? i don’t think so.

    i wanna become a less online, more single player and yeah….more casual gamer!

    so that’s my confession right here.

    #37 2 years ago
  38. DarkElfa

    @31, totally understandable.

    #38 2 years ago
  39. xXBraveShadowXx

    Wow, You’re amazing. I am Ari and I can say my life is very similar as yours and I feel like every word is something I wrote it’s close to me. I can understand what it’s like to dive into games when the world seems to be against you. Thank you for writing I am just so happy I am not the only one. I am a passionate PlayStation gamer as well. :)

    #39 2 years ago
  40. Dragon246

    My feelings aren’t this intense, but PlayStation definitely rocks!
    I have every one them in good condition right now except ps1.
    20th Feb cant come soon enough!

    #40 2 years ago
  41. daytripper

    The wait for the 20th is long

    #41 2 years ago
  42. Eddie Rodrigues

    @theevilaires not alone here buddy, nice company and all, but the PS2 was a big frustration to me if you ask……. Yes I put a 2 there.

    #42 2 years ago
  43. nhowell14

    The guy is absolutely right, the main reason anyone is a fan of any console and as passionate as they are in it’s defense, is due to fond memories that came from and around the time of ownership.

    Come to think of it…every Playstation console I’ve had has had just a lasting impression as what they have for this guy. So I’m in as well.

    Bring on the PS4!!!!

    #43 2 years ago
  44. DrDamn

    @43
    Erm, this “guy” being Brenna?

    #44 2 years ago
  45. RocknRolla

    PS4 <3

    #45 2 years ago

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